Auntie Writes

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Today, I am missing my niece, Louise. So I decided to write her a letter which she’ll probably read by the time she’s 7 to 8 years old.

I hope you’ll like it, Louise. I’m the sweetest Auntie, ikr? – you know, the only Aunt you have (on your dad’s side). But even if you do have more, I’d be the coolest. *wink*

Amanda Louise


Dear Amanda Louise,

This isn’t the first blog that I talked about you. I remember blogging last year when we knew that We’re Expecting A Baby.  : )

I’m always excited and looking forward to every weekend that I’ll be seeing you. (If only I can bring you to the office, I will teach you about digital marketing, and let you do my job  hehe)

I am so happy whenever I am holding you. I love kissing your tiny hands and feet.  And oh! my heart melts when you smile.  Such a joy.

I know it’s too early to bask in your developmental milestones because there will be more! But right now, I am impressed on how you’re trying to carry your head.  Good job!

I would also like to commend your parents for doing the Baby-Wise thingy on you. I only saw that book once, but I do think that it’s effective. I might want to try it someday to my future child(ren)

I love how you cry (I mean, I don’t want to see you cry, but it’s cute!) but most of the time, you’re so quiet and so easy to stop you from crying.

I also love it when you’re acting like you understand us and trying to make a conversation with your eye-expressions and cute sounds that no one can interpret yet we understand and it makes us smile.

I just simply love everything about you.

Also, It seems like you’re a lola’s girl. (Be careful, she might spoil you, but promise me, don’t be bratty, okay?)

I want you to know that I will always provide a safe place for you to voice any questions you have, as you get older.  if you ever find there is a time you need to talk with someone and cannot go to your mom or dad, Sometimes, life is confusing and I am here for you.
I obviously enjoy giving you cute outfits (and my secret goal is to slowly turn you into a panda “Amanda Panda”) There’s a lot of things that I wanted to buy for you, but your dad – my brother, wouldn’t want me to spend too much, so I’m starting to control and fight the urge of buying you stuff. (I don’t think I can. Haha!)

Amanda Louise, Isn’t she Lovely?

I really love your name (and you, of course). I remember asking kuya, what does it mean?

Amanda comes from a Latin word meaning “beloved”, “lovable, worthy of love” while Louise is a French word meaning “renowned warrior”.

Although in the story of “Romeo and Juliet”, Juliet says that the person’s name is not merely as important as what the person is on the inside. However, in the Bible, name plays a significant role in a person’s life and they have a variety of functions.

For example, Moses, his name literally means “to draw out” because his mother drew him out of a river (Exodus 2:10) sometimes because of parents’ reaction Isaac which means “laughter” (Genesis 21:6) and some were used to secure family ties, when John the Baptist was nearly given the name of his father (Luke 1:59) some of the biblical names could be used to communicate God’s message, and many more.

I just pray that you will live up to your name – To Love and be loved.

Names are too often used to express the nature of a person. See how amazing it is? The best example for this is the name Jesus which literally means “The Lord saves” (Matthew 1:20-21) and yes, He did save us. I can’t wait to introduce you to Jesus as soon as you can. I am sure you will love him, I promise. We will never run out of stories about His greatness and blessings – that includes you, Amanda.

I love being an aunt because of you.

Know that I will always be here for you. I want to provide a safe place for you, to voice any questions you have as you get older. (And when there are times when you need to talk with someone and cannot go to your mom or dad). I know, sometimes, life is confusing and I am here for you. Let’s figure things out and I will stand with you in prayers.


Here’s my little prayer for you.
Heavenly Father, Thank you for your many gifts, especially for blessing us the life of our princess, Louise. I submit her to You.

She’s really a blessing and joy to us all. I do pray that you make that a continuing reality. That she will fill the lives of all the people around her with that deep, cavernous joy that comes from knowing You.

God, I know You love her more than we do. I just pray that you would give her everything her heart desires. Use her to change the world for You. Make her heart yearn to learn Your word. Use the beauty of the surroundings to remind her family’s love. Every time she sees the beauty of sunrise and sunset, have her reflect on Your majesty and power. Don’t let anything stand in the way between her relationship with You. Amen


Love you always,

Aunt Aubi


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Missed Chances And Unreciprocated Love (Sara Bareilles – Between the Lines)


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Communication plays a vital role in any relationship. It’s through our words and actions that we share ourselves with others. However, not all of us are good in expressing how we feel and what we really meant to say.

This is exactly why people would rather implicitly communicate what they think, what they feel, as if the subtle words that they are using are enough to convey the depth of their emotion. Worse, they often say nothing at all. Ugh. But wouldn’t life be much simpler if people can just say what they mean without worrying about the repercussions?

The rainy season brought on a feeling that I haven’t explored much since listening to Regina Spektor’s Samson.  This time the song Between the Lines by Sara Bareilles accompanied me in one of my cold and melancholic nights, enveloping me with an emotion that disturbed. I don’t think I’m the only one who wants to feel sad every now and then, but that creeping feeling still seems foreign to me. Research says that mild, temporary states of sadness may actually be beneficial in handling various aspects of our lives. Many of the greatest achievements of art, music, and literature explore the landscape of sadness. In fact, the movie Inside Out explored this through a character appropriately named Sadness and her role in Riley’s life. And I thought, apart from the weather, wanting to feel sad will help me reflect about my life, think about the things I’ve done or things I’m about to do. One of those realisations came to me when I listened to Between the Lines: the complexity of relationships.

(listen to it with Spotify lyrics and feel it, please)

I know each one of us has a different opinion and interpretation about the song, but for me,  it’s about two people who are “friends” (probably more than friends but less than lovers) and the girl had feelings for her friend, never said anything,  and now he has found someone else. They will always be “between the lines”

“I thought I was ready to bleed
That we’d move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late, two choices, to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He’d already left with the other”

I was reminded of a friend’s story, who opened up a similar situation. (I asked permission if I can blog about their story, she said yes but doesn’t want to named her, so let’s just hide her by the pronoun “she”)

They built a strong friendship. They told secrets to each other, life plans, and goals. The two of them can just hang out, maybe watch a film, without any kind of malice.

Or so they thought.

You see, those feelings grew.

They placed themselves in a vulnerable situation in which you and I can be.

Let’s not talk about their story anymore, because I think opening up your heart to another person and hoping for him or her to love you in return IS SO COMMON.


“loving someone who didn’t love you back” The saddest, most painful part of it all. But you love anyway.  I think that’s the essence of loving. You’re giving away part of you without asking anything in return.

Sara seems to embody a feeling that probably most everyone has experienced in life.

“Too late, two choices, to stay or to leave”

Often the most REGRETTED words are those left UNSAID.

You either free your soul and spill, or die in torment to salvage.

This is the part where you will have to decide to keep it because you’re afraid of rejection or probably scared of losing the friendship.  If you know for sure that the feelings are mutual, then there is no risk involved.

I tell myself all the words he surely meant to say
I’ll talk until the conversation doesn’t stay on
Wait for me, I’m almost ready when he meant let go

She was ready to come out and tell him how she feels and then they would be together. but she was too late.

Let go.

the two of you would have been an unstoppable force and an amazing love story – or NOT.

I understand why there are things that should not be said. Or if we will, it should be done with WISDOM. How we say it and the right timing when we say it.

Okay, that’s the end of my blog post. I don’t know how to end this. Haha! BUT I DEFINITELY add this song as one of my fave unrequited love songs.

I just want to say few more things.

Woman, I still believed that we deserved to be pursued but if the guy’s actions made you feel confused, I believed you can ask “WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVATION?” (PewDiePie accent) but please, be patient and love your guy friends with brotherly love. If God intended you to be partners, He will surely nourish that love in His time.

and GUYS, please, man-up. Lay down your intentions, be ready for a NO and don’t play with our fragile heart and emotions. huhu.

Alright, what is my point now?

Sometimes, it will not work the way we want it. (That’s reality) but even if it doesn’t, be assured that we can trust God. Later on, you will be thankful about why things happened that way. (I’m not trying to be religious or anything.) But this is FAITH.

Understand that life isn’t just about you and your love story but HIS LOVE STORY.

Romans 5:8

but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

This is TRUE LOVE.

God’s love is unconditional, and it’s not based on feelings or emotions. He doesn’t love us because we’re lovable or because we make Him feel good; He loves us because He is love. He created us to have a loving relationship with Him, and He sacrificed His own Son (who also willingly died for us) to restore that relationship.

Agree? 🙂

Thank you. I love you for taking time reading this.

What’s your thought about the song? about the love story of my friend? about unrequited love? and other random stuff. Tell me. 🙂

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