My Own Memoir of Anxiety

Anxiety. This is one of the major topics that I love in Psychiatric Nursing when I was in college, but it feels different when you’re the one experiencing it.

I received a text message yesterday and I am starting to worry after reading it. I felt vague and unsettling, signs and symptoms of a mild anxiety.  Racing heartbeats, butterfly in the stomach. (Somehow similar with the feelings when you see your crush. Now,  can you relate?)

I know I’m worrying too much. And maybe it’s a part of being human but if I didn’t respond in a right way, I it can lead to Anxiety Disorder, it can be a common disorder but it is still an unpleasant mental state wherein there’s inability to function in a healthy way.


In the dictionary, Anxiety means a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.
In other words, FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN.
We are all afraid of the unknown to some degree or another
I will not go into details regarding types, causes or treatment or other medical explanation. You can always ask Google about it.
What I want you to remember is that
Anxiety Disorder aren’t just a matter of FEAR itself. The key component is what we do to get rid of that fear.
This blog post is inspired by the series of events that makes me anxious and how my PERSPECTIVE changed how I view Anxiety.  
Another life transition for me and I know, it’s fragile. It takes a lot of forces to make a rapid changes especially that I had that job for years. The thought of it makes me miss my work friends and now it’s happening.

Aside from that,  job is more than just the way I make a living. It give structure, purpose, and meaning. That’s why unemployment is one of the most stressful things that a person can experience.

Loss of income

Loss of professional identity
Loss of self-esteem and self-confidence
Loss of daily routine
Loss of purposeful activity
Loss of work-based social network and lastly,
Loss of sense of security.
I indulged myself with those thoughts and feel the depression a week after I submitted my resignation letter. I am certainly sure that I wanted to leave, but I do not know where to go and what’s waiting for me.
But it’s a different story when you know what to hoped for and where to put your faith.
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. (Heb. 11:1)
I always thank God for His word. Now, I’m taking chance to reflect on what I want and rethink my career priorities. Maybe this situation made me stronger. I’m sure to find something of value.
Days passed, I stop wallowing in self pity.
I acknowledged that these emotions are normal. I have every right to be upset, so I accept my feelings and go easy on myself.
I took a vacation and went to Davao. Enjoyed the nature and the amazing creation made by the Divine Artisan.
Like relationship breakups, I have to move on. Taking actions will help me feel more in control of the situation. I may never know what opportunities will arise, but that makes me trust God even more. Plus, the outpouring support of my family pleasantly surprise me. Simple words of sympathy and encouragement is a huge boost in this not-so-good time.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:6-7).
There are three key words in these verses: Anxious, prayer and, peace. Being anxious is the problem we are told to put off; prayer is the procedure we are told to practice; peace is the product we are promised by God.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.  (John 14:27)

He spoke those comforting, and powerful words the night before His crucifixion – the most difficult night He’s here on earth, . God is called either the God or Lord of peace. That peace can be the constant experience of every Christian, even in the midst of trials.To experience God’s peace instead of anxiety, pray with thankfulness about every concern in every situation.

Do you have God’s peace in the midst of situations that the world gets anxious about? If not, examine yourself: Is your faith in Him and your focus on His kingdom? Have you drawn near to God?

You can put your full weight down on Him, and He will bear you up and give you His indescribable peace.

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