What’s It Like To Work As A Social Media Specialist


I never dreamed to be a Social Media Specialist. Moreover, didn’t know this job exist.

This post is inspired by a week of being workaholic but enjoying it. (Or let’s just say, I chose to enjoy it)

From being a Staff Nurse on my first job, to a total career shift entering Internet Marketing at SEO Hacker (which by the way the reason where I am right now, and to whom I owe most of the things I learn about Social Media and SEO or prolly Marketing as a whole.)

As what Nelly Furtado said in her song  “All Good Things (Come To An End)” so did my stay at SEO Hacker.

I started working at TOMS Philippines last September 14, 2015 after taking my vacation to Davao, SG and KL.

I’ll tell you a secret. The reason for that travel is to set new feelings/ set my mind or to break what I used to in 3 years. So that I will not miss them that much. (It’s like moving on) 😛 But it’s not that effective, e. 🙁 Although it helps.

Going back, it’s really God’s favor that I found a new job not long enough from the time I left SEO. Although I’m praying for something else (nothing grand, but CLOSE TO MY HEART), but to make it clear, there’s no regret on my part in taking this job.

It’s difficult not to be impressed with TOMS. There’s a strong brand recognition, a great and very artsy office (Foundry Building), good facilities, employee perks, and nice people. (But I don’t have a solid companion YET, but I do have friends already)

It is expected that I’ll be having a series of adjustment. Almost in all aspect of my life. Character, attitude towards work and people, and more.

So, there, I just want to present my thoughts or just let it out, on what it’s like to work as a Social Media Specialist.

What do I do as a Social Media Specialist?

Obviously, part of it is creating and maintaining content for their brand in different Social Media platforms. It sounds so easy (I thought) because I’ve been doing it most likely for 2 to 3 years.  But content is just a part of a big picture as to be called “specialist” I was stretched in creating content on my previous job but actually, I missed the most important part of it, the reason why  those content were created. To engage, to create a community, in short, to actually communicate.

It’s my bad, I don’t have the right to complain, since it is in my power to strategize. But, but….. (okay, no excuses)

A good portion of my job is not just creating but also adapting content for each specific network. This includes positioning content in under 140 characters for Twitter, creating images and graphics to accompany Facebook and Twitter posts, taking and curating photos and videos for visual platforms like Instagram. Coming up with several iterations of post copy (since the lifespan of a social media post is so short), and even creating content from scratch specifically for growing a following on social media.

THIS IS SO MUCH WORK TO DO. Imagine in one brand, the standard/basic is having 1-2 posts on Facebook, 2-4 posts on Instagram and 3-6 on Twitter. All with different content from the other or at least, different on how you will present it. Not to mention my time spending in answering messages and regraming or retweeting mentions.

Ooooops!!! I am not ranting, I am passionately saying that these situation made me love my job MORE.

Yes, MORE. 😀

From 7-14 brands that I managed before, now down to 3. I can say that it is more personal, and I learned to adapt or maintain a voice for them. I learned how to owned them. Plus, receiving a compliment direct/indirect from a happy stranger is sooo fulfilling.

Okay, this is just my second week in my current job, if I change my mind, I’ll blog about it. JK. 😉

So aside from that, reports are still part of the job, Analytics, MORE NUMBERS and of course, metrics is nothing if you will not analyze it.

It’s 3AM so forgive me if I don’t make sense. 😀

My favorite part is the brainstorming where we can throw ideas how to leverage each product, event, stores etc. Execution of campaigns, designs, and communicating to different social media influencer. This is all new to me. I love to learn new things.

Marketing is a big world, and knowing that each person in the team plays a unique role, it helps to create a collaborative effort in the workplace that can lead to innovative approaches to projects, new processes to accomplish key tasks and shared ideas on varied responsibilities.

But the truth is, behind all these things that I’m doing. The Vision and the mission of the company is the core reason for me to love what I’m doing.

Improving LivesI am not just aiming for the sale, or on how to market it but I am thinking more of the results. How many kids will benefit in the program and how many lives will be save in providing trainings for safe birth, and how many people will receive help.

One for One. Referring to the company’s promise to deliver a pair of free, new shoes to a child in need for every sale of their retail product.

It’s like a ministry in a corporate setting. That’s a bonus.

(By the way, I’m not just handling TOMS, I also handle the retail “Nothing but H2O” and sister brand “Anemone Swimwear“.)

Follow them on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram @anemoneswimwear @tomsphilippines @nothingbuth2o *wink

What’s my favorite part of the job?

Lunch. Haha! Just kidding. My favorite part is the “crunch time” but I am not wishing to experience it everyday. I like the adrenalin when decisive action is needed. That critical period where me and my GA always have that “test of friendship” phase and needed some over time to finish urgent tasks.


I feel like a real “Specialist” in finding the value of what I am doing  as a part of the team. Much has been touted about how important it is to find a job you love. Maybe that’s not as critical as we’ve been led to believe. Appreciation is the key. And most importantly TRUST. Trusting in the Lord that He will bless you and you will be a blessing wherever He place you. Be secured on that.

*Sharing you my life verse.

Psalm 16:5-7

LORD you have assigned me my portion and my cup. You have made my lot secure.

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My Own Memoir of Anxiety

Anxiety. This is one of the major topics that I love in Psychiatric Nursing when I was in college, but it feels different when you’re the one experiencing it.

I received a text message yesterday and I am starting to worry after reading it. I felt vague and unsettling, signs and symptoms of a mild anxiety.  Racing heartbeats, butterfly in the stomach. (Somehow similar with the feelings when you see your crush. Now,  can you relate?)

I know I’m worrying too much. And maybe it’s a part of being human but if I didn’t respond in a right way, I it can lead to Anxiety Disorder, it can be a common disorder but it is still an unpleasant mental state wherein there’s inability to function in a healthy way.


In the dictionary, Anxiety means a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.
In other words, FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN.
We are all afraid of the unknown to some degree or another
I will not go into details regarding types, causes or treatment or other medical explanation. You can always ask Google about it.
What I want you to remember is that
Anxiety Disorder aren’t just a matter of FEAR itself. The key component is what we do to get rid of that fear.
This blog post is inspired by the series of events that makes me anxious and how my PERSPECTIVE changed how I view Anxiety.  
Another life transition for me and I know, it’s fragile. It takes a lot of forces to make a rapid changes especially that I had that job for years. The thought of it makes me miss my work friends and now it’s happening.

Aside from that,  job is more than just the way I make a living. It give structure, purpose, and meaning. That’s why unemployment is one of the most stressful things that a person can experience.

Loss of income

Loss of professional identity
Loss of self-esteem and self-confidence
Loss of daily routine
Loss of purposeful activity
Loss of work-based social network and lastly,
Loss of sense of security.
I indulged myself with those thoughts and feel the depression a week after I submitted my resignation letter. I am certainly sure that I wanted to leave, but I do not know where to go and what’s waiting for me.
But it’s a different story when you know what to hoped for and where to put your faith.
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. (Heb. 11:1)
I always thank God for His word. Now, I’m taking chance to reflect on what I want and rethink my career priorities. Maybe this situation made me stronger. I’m sure to find something of value.
Days passed, I stop wallowing in self pity.
I acknowledged that these emotions are normal. I have every right to be upset, so I accept my feelings and go easy on myself.
I took a vacation and went to Davao. Enjoyed the nature and the amazing creation made by the Divine Artisan.
Like relationship breakups, I have to move on. Taking actions will help me feel more in control of the situation. I may never know what opportunities will arise, but that makes me trust God even more. Plus, the outpouring support of my family pleasantly surprise me. Simple words of sympathy and encouragement is a huge boost in this not-so-good time.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:6-7).
There are three key words in these verses: Anxious, prayer and, peace. Being anxious is the problem we are told to put off; prayer is the procedure we are told to practice; peace is the product we are promised by God.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.  (John 14:27)

He spoke those comforting, and powerful words the night before His crucifixion – the most difficult night He’s here on earth, . God is called either the God or Lord of peace. That peace can be the constant experience of every Christian, even in the midst of trials.To experience God’s peace instead of anxiety, pray with thankfulness about every concern in every situation.

Do you have God’s peace in the midst of situations that the world gets anxious about? If not, examine yourself: Is your faith in Him and your focus on His kingdom? Have you drawn near to God?

You can put your full weight down on Him, and He will bear you up and give you His indescribable peace.

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I Will Remember You


To a friend I never thought I’d have, this is a not-so-short appreciation letter to express how you’ve been a blessing to my life.

I do not remember exactly how the two of us became close friends. I just knew that you’re a cool person and fun to be with. I can still remember when you call me Audrey. I will always be grateful for that start and for all the memories that followed after. (I had an attempt to list the highlights of our friendship using the images I had on Facebook and Instagram as reference BUT it’s a lot! so, never mind.)

Pictures, food, coffee, food, “rolling in the deep”, food, games, music, food, Instagram, food, coffee, yep!  mostly food. hahaha! Things we bond and do together.


Thank you for making work more enjoyable for me.
Thank you for always being the supportive friend that you are.
Thank you for the advices, devotional talk or keep me company. You don’t know how uplifting your words of encouragement and support are.

Thank you for always believing in me during the times I myself forget to. For giving small rewards and appreciation even in little things – like blogging. You would always cheer me up and give me those inspirational talks when I’m having a hard time at work, with people, or with myself. That means a lot to me simply because they come from someone whose thoughts and opinions I treasure and value.

Thank you for noticing whenever something’s bothering me. Your gift of discernment is amazing!

Thank you for trusting me by confiding in me your problems. Opening up, showing me your vulnerability, and trusting me your secrets.


I am sorry if in any way, I offended you.

For some issues that my mind is still reeling and hasn’t quite settled with my questions in life. Sorry for overthinking.


I end up writing mostly about you. Why? Because I want you to know this is how I will remember you.

1. An Oracle.
You’re a person with great knowledge and wisdom. It’s both blessing and curse, right? ; ) But next to Google, when I have questions, I will definitely ask you because I know you have answers or at least something to say.

It amazes me whenever you’re sharing something (may it be from the book or blog that you’ve read) and telling your opinion about it.

We have differences and similarities in our point of views, which will bring me to number 2.

2. You know how to listen.
Despite of differences, you respect other’s opinion. You have the ability to make other people feel calm and accepted in your presence.  I am not sure if it is genuine though. hahaha! You often notice all the things other people seem to miss and you seek understanding for the logic and motivation behind how people behave.

You want to understand a person from every angle.

3. You think before you speak. You even pray before you utter what’s on your mind the last time, remember? : )

4. You can read people
You have an inherent sense about people and understand what they want or what they’re thinking without them having to say anything directly about it.

5. You pay attention to details

6. Sense of Humor
Your humor shows the ability to see the complexity in any given situation. Fast and witty.

7. Friendly
I know I’m friendly, but you go the extra mile of getting along with people whom I don’t noticed in my everyday life. Through you, I have met the baristas in Starbucks. I learned to thank them with their names. I have been friends with the manong guards in the village whom you always say hi’s nd hello’s

8. Your body language. Your jaw line + “don’t come near me” look when you’re mad, you’re dancing when you’re happy

9. Hates cucumber and Eggplant. And loves Tinola. (just additional info) 😀

10. A person who learns from mistake and who’s willing to face all the consequences.
Brave and at the same time it sound stupid. Especially when you know that it can harm you. You still do it any way. BUT in control. (I wondered about so many things about you after learning so much about you)

11. A person who will die because of bicycle. (another additional info)

12. A Love Guru
You have different categories or ways of falling in love.

13. Loved by God.
NO MATTER WHAT : ) And I still want to be your friend, no matter what.

Btw, Forgive me for the drama. You’re one of the person I will miss the most. These memories and prayers are all I have left of you.

I genuinely hope that you find all the happiness you deserve.

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Auntie Writes

baby feet

Today, I am missing my niece, Louise. So I decided to write her a letter which she’ll probably read by the time she’s 7 to 8 years old.

I hope you’ll like it, Louise. I’m the sweetest Auntie, ikr? – you know, the only Aunt you have (on your dad’s side). But even if you do have more, I’d be the coolest. *wink*

Amanda Louise


Dear Amanda Louise,

This isn’t the first blog that I talked about you. I remember blogging last year when we knew that We’re Expecting A Baby.  : )

I’m always excited and looking forward to every weekend that I’ll be seeing you. (If only I can bring you to the office, I will teach you about digital marketing, and let you do my job  hehe)

I am so happy whenever I am holding you. I love kissing your tiny hands and feet.  And oh! my heart melts when you smile.  Such a joy.

I know it’s too early to bask in your developmental milestones because there will be more! But right now, I am impressed on how you’re trying to carry your head.  Good job!

I would also like to commend your parents for doing the Baby-Wise thingy on you. I only saw that book once, but I do think that it’s effective. I might want to try it someday to my future child(ren)

I love how you cry (I mean, I don’t want to see you cry, but it’s cute!) but most of the time, you’re so quiet and so easy to stop you from crying.

I also love it when you’re acting like you understand us and trying to make a conversation with your eye-expressions and cute sounds that no one can interpret yet we understand and it makes us smile.

I just simply love everything about you.

Also, It seems like you’re a lola’s girl. (Be careful, she might spoil you, but promise me, don’t be bratty, okay?)

I want you to know that I will always provide a safe place for you to voice any questions you have, as you get older.  if you ever find there is a time you need to talk with someone and cannot go to your mom or dad, Sometimes, life is confusing and I am here for you.
I obviously enjoy giving you cute outfits (and my secret goal is to slowly turn you into a panda “Amanda Panda”) There’s a lot of things that I wanted to buy for you, but your dad – my brother, wouldn’t want me to spend too much, so I’m starting to control and fight the urge of buying you stuff. (I don’t think I can. Haha!)

Amanda Louise, Isn’t she Lovely?

I really love your name (and you, of course). I remember asking kuya, what does it mean?

Amanda comes from a Latin word meaning “beloved”, “lovable, worthy of love” while Louise is a French word meaning “renowned warrior”.

Although in the story of “Romeo and Juliet”, Juliet says that the person’s name is not merely as important as what the person is on the inside. However, in the Bible, name plays a significant role in a person’s life and they have a variety of functions.

For example, Moses, his name literally means “to draw out” because his mother drew him out of a river (Exodus 2:10) sometimes because of parents’ reaction Isaac which means “laughter” (Genesis 21:6) and some were used to secure family ties, when John the Baptist was nearly given the name of his father (Luke 1:59) some of the biblical names could be used to communicate God’s message, and many more.

I just pray that you will live up to your name – To Love and be loved.

Names are too often used to express the nature of a person. See how amazing it is? The best example for this is the name Jesus which literally means “The Lord saves” (Matthew 1:20-21) and yes, He did save us. I can’t wait to introduce you to Jesus as soon as you can. I am sure you will love him, I promise. We will never run out of stories about His greatness and blessings – that includes you, Amanda.

I love being an aunt because of you.

Know that I will always be here for you. I want to provide a safe place for you, to voice any questions you have as you get older. (And when there are times when you need to talk with someone and cannot go to your mom or dad). I know, sometimes, life is confusing and I am here for you. Let’s figure things out and I will stand with you in prayers.


Here’s my little prayer for you.
Heavenly Father, Thank you for your many gifts, especially for blessing us the life of our princess, Louise. I submit her to You.

She’s really a blessing and joy to us all. I do pray that you make that a continuing reality. That she will fill the lives of all the people around her with that deep, cavernous joy that comes from knowing You.

God, I know You love her more than we do. I just pray that you would give her everything her heart desires. Use her to change the world for You. Make her heart yearn to learn Your word. Use the beauty of the surroundings to remind her family’s love. Every time she sees the beauty of sunrise and sunset, have her reflect on Your majesty and power. Don’t let anything stand in the way between her relationship with You. Amen


Love you always,

Aunt Aubi


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Envisioned Dreams

envisioned dreams

This blog post (after a 5-month hiatus) was inspired by Kevin Si, who constantly pushes me to blog and encourage my growth as a human being. You’re a blessing, Kevin. 

“Where do you see yourself 5 years from now and are you working towards it?” Aside from job interviews which this question is commonly asked, I encountered the same question from a friend. I don’t remember answering this question, I think I just said, “Ikaw?” (how about you?) and he answered it.

Last night, we then again randomly talked about life. And the conversation naturally flows to some sort of career talk and office matters. This person is a good encourager and loves to challenge people around him, me (on the other hand) doesn’t have any choice but to take the challenge (well, it’s for my own growth). He asked me to blog about my dreams. I actually don’t know how to start but here I am, typing and contemplating about my dreams in life.



Steve Jobs says,

“The only way to do great work is to love what you do.”

So, are we supposed to love first what we’re doing or rather follow Confucius when he says

 “Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life”

But I believe, either way, loving is a decision. I believe wherever God placed us in different seasons of our lives, it has a purpose and we should excel for God. Like what the bible says is Collosians 3:23 that

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men.”

Easier said than done, I know.

Well then, let’s say you’re in a situation where you aren’t exactly doing the things you love, or maybe, you can’t even get a job. You might want to pause for a while and start asking yourself a couple of questions; questions that might help you discover what is it that you really want – Why is it that your life is the way it is? Where would you like to be headed? How does the perfect life looks for you, and many other question that might help you get back on the right track and start living the life that you really want.

The point is, loving your job is one thing, and loving the impact your job has on someone else is another. If you don’t totally hate your job but find you’re not that happy with what you are doing, try this one little simple activity: Go and see your work being received. See how it impacts someone else, another coworker, a customer, another team, or whoever benefits from your work.



We all have dreams, God ordained dreams that will do great things for Him.

Growing up, I have a lot of things that I want to become. A Doctor, Teacher, Cashier, Astronaut, and some jobs that I realized that don’t really exist. What drives me is the excitement and a chance to help other people. (See? I’m a good girl, I really want to help other people. hehe)

I ended up taking a Bachelors degree in Nursing and became a Registered Nurse which allows me to passionately take care of the people from womb to tomb. It is indeed a privilege and fulfilling on my part to do such thing.

But what separates my inner kid’s career dreams and now is when I was young, Money is not an issue. I mean, regardless of what my future careers may pay, I know I can grow up to be anything I want – unless, that is, if I want to be SpongeBob.

In my previous blog, I do mention Why I Gave Up The Job I Love.

Priority – If money is not a priority you can choose the job what you love. But I’m not saying you cannot have the best of both worlds. Miracles do happen, I think it still exists.  😀



I still dream to become a Doctor. But I don’t have enough money to pay for my tuition fee as a med student and I don’t want to study for 4 more years, not to mention the Physician Licensure Exam, the internship, fellowship and specialization. (Okay, I think, let’s just forget about being a doctor since I am not willing to pursue this. :P)

I wanted to become a leader who teaches my specialty, let’s say I am sooo expert in the niche of Social Media, I wanted to train a team, speak in a conference like in SEO Summit and share my knowledge and skills. (Is it doable?) I also want to strategize and make a big impact in each client I am handling or in our own product in the future. I have learned to love my job as a Social Media Specialist since I started working at SEO Hacker.

One thing I know for sure is that I love working in the lives of the children. Whether a volunteer or not – this gave birth to my Pediatric Nurse dream when I was in College. However, I found joy in being part of the Health Professionals Volunteers and Operation Blessings in joining medical missions and outreach program. And of course, my once-a-month kids volunteer in our local Church. There’s nothing more fulfilling than doing things that you’re passionate about.



My parents’ support plays a big role in my career and aspirations. No, don’t get me wrong, they didn’t tell me what to do, what to take and what to pursue. I just need their support and their approval. I always asked their opinion, what they think if I do this, and that etc. I believe there are blessings in obedience so when they say no or yes to something, I have confidence in doing so. Provided it is logically correct and reasonable. But most of the time I have to make decisions on my own. I always get the answers like “Did you pray for it? If yes, then go. Up to you. What makes you happy”.  Even if it sounds like a template reply you will know if there’s a hidden no or yes on how they say it. (Is it just me?)

Knowing that there is someone out there supporting me all throughout is enough to keep me going. Thank God for family.



It’s like a psychology of pain and pleasure. Reward – Punishment system. What drives you to do what you’re doing?


That when you don’t do well, you know that the outcome is not what you desire. For example, you’re working to earn money and if you’re not working good enough you will not earn good enough. And that will force you to work harder and eventually if you still don’t get what you want, you will feel unsatisfied and burned-out.

This sort of reminds me of KevSi’s article  Stop Working For What You Need


The bible says in Proverbs 29:18 “Where there is no vision, the people perish.”

Every destination emerges from a vision. If you do not think about or visualize about the things that you want to happen, you will never thrive to accomplish them. One needs to have a goal in life in order to grab it.

Can you imagine reaching the stars, when actually you have never seen them? Certainly not! You should have something to eye upon first before you plan to claim it.

That is why when we’re working in a company or any corporate job, it is important that we know the company’s vision and work towards it.

Motivation is important in fulfilling our dreams. However, in the midst of inspiring others and expecting kind words from our loved ones, we often forget that no other person can drive us to do anything in life but ourselves. Motivation or self-motivation inculcates that passion in us that is required to ‘live’ and not just ‘survive’ in this world.


My mom is always praying for me and my brothers. (She always tells me that *wink) It’s so comforting to know that someone is investing in our dreams by means of prayer.

God wants us to dream His dreams. The Lord has a specific dream for each one of us, and He will put that dream into our hearts if we listen carefully.  But the only way we can hear Him is when we continue to pursue an intimate relationship with Him. Pray and read His word.


I hope this blog post encouraged you to pursue your dreams.

No, day dreaming will not land you at your destination. Just set yourself free, have faith and live your dream!

And I hope none of us will end up singing Les Miserable’s I Dreamed A Dream.

I had a dream my life would be

So different from this hell I’m living

So different now, from what it seemed

Now life has killed the dream I dreamed


Dream BIG! Remember this song.

Your love is higher

Than the skies up above

Your love is wider

Than what I can dream of

Your love is deeper

It’s the greatest of all.

-Higher, Wider, Deeper by Citipointe


“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him to glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!”

Ephesians 3:20-21


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12MN Vehement

not good enough

I feel sad tonight, for reasons that I myself is responsible for. I keep thinking about something that I know will hurt me and will make me feel unassertive. First pitty party after NY (you are invited) *deep sigh*

Emo moment while listening to “Name Above All Names” by Martha Munizzi. It is one of the lineup songs for January 4 schedule. (It is actually an upbeat song and very inappropriate to feel sad) It started with a song The reason why I feel forlorn is that, the song has a complicated arrangement (in my own opinion) AND I’m having a hard time practicing it. No chords available on the internet, only paid piano sheet which I’m trying to read on the preview (I don’t have money to purchase a legit one) and so I wrote it.

I gave myself a break after practicing for almost the whole day.

While playing COC (I know this is irrelevant) all my builders are unavailable so I closed my ipad and stare at the ceiling. Then my thought lingers… “I am not good enough” in all things that I’m doing. Even for this one that I thought I am passionate with.

*Sad face*

I’ve been playing keyboard for 4 years or more, and yet I am not growing. I still play like uhm, what, a beginner? Or perhaps the next level after that.

Then, I encourage myself.. “Aubrey, you can do it, just listen to the song once again”

“But maybe that’s right, I am not good enough… lahat nalang! Even at work, I am not growing, bla bla bla”

SO ANONG GAGAWIN KO? Mag-eemote nalang ako forevs? NO WAY.

I took time to pray. I am focusing too much with myself, forgetting that it is not about me (it will never be). I asked God for forgiveness with these unhealthy thoughts. After all, it will all boils down to my relationship with HIM, how much I trust Him to do these things for me, and how will I improve myself that I will reflect His glory. Allowing his wisdom and power to manifest in my weakness.

Now, I am overwhelmed with His word.

“For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.” Isaiah 43:19 NLT


I can really feel His comfort tonight. He’s really a father who constantly reminds me how much He loves me. I know He felt the same way with you. ^^

And so while the song is on loop when these things happened, It was on the bridge part that says

“Jesus, God with us, more than enough… oh, how I love Your name.”

Even if I am not good enough, He is more than enough.

Now, I will sleep with a smile. Secured, loved, ready for tomorrow’s practice, done with this unedited blog, wu-hoo! (I have 3 more on my drafts) and lastly, my COC builders are finished – will make them build again before I sleep.


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Nurse Talk: Why I Gave Up The Job I Love

Nurse Cap

“No pulse, no breathing, pupils are dilated”

Signs of irreversible termination of all living functions. The end of life – death.

The first time I (as nurse) lose a patient was  extremely difficult. In fact, I can still recall the circumstances surrounding my first patient’s death.

I heard those lines again while watching MMK (Maala-ala mo kaya) on a Saturday evening with my family. It’s about the  “Nurse Rapper” who raps for her dying cancer patient. Her name is Fatima Palma, one of the Staff Nurse at EAMC (East Avenue Medical Center)

I don’t usually watch a television when I’m home, or, most of the time, I am not at home.  So upon watching this MMK’s episode, at first, I am not interested. It just happened that we’re watching it while eating dinner, and even after meal, I am hooked with every scene. For a simple reason – I can relate.


Why Nursing?

First year college, we’re always asked, “Why did you choose Nursing” as part of our introduction. Unlike any other prevalent reasons why – to go to a different country – to give their family a financial breathing ground. But most of them, their parents chose the course for them.(Ugh! Nursing schools should adopt the culture of screening their students to avoid producing nurses who don’t want to be nurses anyway.)

As for me, it really is my dream to become a nurse – or a doctor. I wanted to do something in my career that is challenging, interesting, and makes a difference in people’s lives on a daily basis. Plus the benefit of rendering health care to my own family – especially my Mom.


Almost Giving-up

I am well-motivated. All of the people around me including my family and friends, supports me. From moral to financial support – name it. I never thought of quitting in anything (even in Pharmacology that brings me tears in one summer class, and Thesis. Gaaaah!)

Acads was never a problem, by God’s grace. I didn’t fail any of my subjects and/or any exams required for graduation.

Completed the hours of duty. Enjoyed all of them! (all areas, all shifts). Priceless experience! Although I had a hard time in compiling all the cases I had for Board Exam application.

Anyway, to make a long story short, my journey continues after grad. Review, Board Exam, Intravenous Training, Red Cross, and other stuff needed before applying in a hospital.

It took lots of time, money, effort and yes, energy.

But it’s all worth it when I started working (as in working in a real world). Earning real money and not for good grades.

Everything seems perfect and I can say that I can really feel the fulfillment every time my patient is healed and may go home.

The hospital I am working is a bit far from our home. So 8 hours of duty plus an hour of endorsement (before and after shift), plus rounds, an hour or two for transportation. That’ll give you almost 12 hours. (socialization not included)

Shifting schedule started to become uncomfortable to me as it took my “Sunday” time in the ministry and attending church. I started to re-evaluate my priority so as my heart’s desire. I really wanted to help people in my job, but I also wanted to miniter and to be ministered as well.

A time of intense difficulty in my career as a Nurse came. I had a problem with my co-worker that led to improper endorsement of medicine (I will not go into details, but this can be a reason if things got worse – to lose my license). It took away my joy. I lose my purpose why I was there. Discontentment follows.

After experiencing a 3-month delay in salary, and “alone” duty on pediatric ward handling 6 patients. I cried. Feel like giving up. But seeing the kids in the ward encouraged me to love the profession all the more. To just care. The TLC (tender loving care).

To help without asking anything in return.

Regardless how you feel. Painstaking.

That’s why they say,

Nursing is more than just a career – it’s a calling

Calling is a deep desire to devote oneself to serving people according to the high values of the task or profession.

Why I Gave Up The Job I Love

I realize it’s not the profession I’m tired of, but rather my nursing shift, some people, and  perhaps, the area of practice.

And obviously, there’s really something wrong with the system, compensation and the hiring process. (The number of nurses and the number of patient being served)

It’s not enough to sugar coat the nursing career in the Philippines. Passion and compassion is not enough – let’s face it! Not enough motivation. Nurses are so busy and totally disillusioned trying to hold their heads above water and survive until the end of the shift.

I gave up the job I love, the job (I think) I am extremely good at… who knows if I shall return. If I do, I imagine it will only be if enormous improvements are made in the support and resources available to nurses.

I regret nothing becoming a Nurse

I am not encouraging  Nurses to quit, rather, love wherever they are right now.

Going back to MMK episode…

Fatima is a brave young woman willing to fight for what is right no matter how hard it was. Kudos for her wholehearted service. If you weren’t able to watch it, watch it here.  I hope that after that episode, our government will do something about the rotting Health Care Delivery System here in the Philippines.


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There is nothing like a mom’s love – they do things selflessly.

Imagine carrying a life for 9 months, the pain of giving birth. A mother faces tremendous amount of pain which is equivalent to 20 bones getting fractured at the same time (yes, too painful to imagine!)

Only mothers can do it.

(This isn’t a mother’s day post but I just want to honor my Mom for being an awesome Mom)

I will never be too old to ask for my mom’s advice or a good night kiss and warm hugs. Hers is the purest form of love in this world. There is no match to it. My mom has a never ending supply of unconditional and irrevocable love. She remembers the date, the day and the moment when her children were born. The first day I succeeded in walking with my feet, the day I went to school and the first crush I had in school. All those things are engraved in her memories.

She knows if I’m okay or not. Whenever I’m sick, she always has the perfect medication for all. She knows the home remedies for the common colds and allergies and other infections. No matter what, she knows the secret of how to make me feel better.

Last week, I had a fever, cough and colds. More than the pharmacologic effect of taking antipyretic and antitusive drugs, my mom’s therapeutic touch helped me to get well. The incredible healing effect of a mother’s touch.

I wish I had that healing effect on her too – that she’ll feel better whenever she’s sick.

I’ve been doing  q10 minutes blood pressure monitoring for mommy since 4pm today. She’s experiencing on/off headache with a pain scale of 7/10 down to 5/10 now. She doesn’t have any difficulty in breathing (Thank God). Way back 2008, Mommy was diagnosed with Hypertension. That same year, she also had a mild stroke. I still remember how I felt when she was confined in the hospital. I felt sunken. I felt anxious. I felt scared. We all prayed for her, and by God’s grace she got better. From then on, I am always involved with her daily check-ups, maintenance medicine and her over all health and lifestyle (including diet modification and exercise) again, by God’s grace, she’s always fine and any deviation on her LDL/HDL, Tryglicerides were corrected and/or close to normal.

I am a graduate of Bachelor of Science in Nursing, and in our “Medical and Surgical Nursing” subject, my favorite topic is the Cardiovascular System, which I memorized and understood by heart. That time, it was so clear to me why I took that course – to take good care of mommy. But the con of it was that every symptom that is present in my mom is a fast-paced prognosis in my mind, which leads me to worrying. But the Bible never fails to remind me not to worry and only He can provide healing and restore good health.

1 Peter 5:7 Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. (NLT)

1Peter 2:24 He personally carried our sins in his body on the cross so that we can be dead to sin and live for what is right. By his wounds you are healed. (NLT)

God is ever faithful and always a great source of strength and finances we need. My Mom and Dad have health cards that cover their check-ups and even provide discounts for medicines. They are strong enough to perform daily activities and chores. They’re even actively participating in church activities including victory group and ministry.I thank God for sustaining Mom and also Dad.

Praying for immediate healing for mommy right now, I just don’t want to see her in pain or feeling any discomfort. If you’re reading this, please stand with me in prayer. Thank you. 🙂

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We’re Expecting A Baby!


When’s the right time to tell others that you’re pregnant? Do you really have to wait until second trimester? What if I am too excited and I just can’t help it? I want everyone else to know that we’re having a new member in the family!

Disclaimer: Just in case you’re not going to finish reading my blog post, please don’t gossip. I am not pregnant. Haha!

Before the end of September, I received a message on our family group chat in Viber – a picture which read, “Pregnancy Uterine 6 weeks and 1 day” sent by my sister-in-law.  My current brother is going to be a future father which will make him a brother father! ISN’T IT NICE? I am so happy! I could already picture myself holding that cute small baby child, taking care of my first pamangkin. (Oh, the happiness of being an aunt…. can you feel it?)

So, will Tita Ninang Aubrey be spoiling the baby? Yes! I’ll be buying loads of gifts. I honestly can’t wait.

I totally struggled to keep it a secret (I don’t even know if this is a secret…) shouting it from the rooftops is a more accurate way to put it. I just want to share my overflowing joy for my brother, Kuya Jeff and his wife, Ate Kath.

While counting and waiting for the next 8 months, stand with us in praying for my sister-in-law. That she’ll have a safe pregnancy and an uncomplicated delivery and of course, a normal healthy awesome, amazing, adorable baby child.

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She’s our furry baby in the office. She has the most adorable and sweetest way of greeting us every morning. Her tail is wagging and her excitement is contagious. She is very smart! She can do lots of tricks that will entertain you and will give you enough reason to give her a treat, or at least, a good rub on her belly.

I can still remember the first time I saw her. Kevin (her owner/father) bought her and I went with him at Festival Mall. She was so small, and cute (of course!), her eyes is so expressive – it seems like she has a lot to say. From then on, going to the office is extra special because Nica is there. 😉 Having a dog in the workplace increased morale and productivity. She became a stress reliever for most of us – a living “stress ball”, she naturally alleviate stress.

Nica also helps build camaraderie in the office. It is an inherent advantage of having a pet to gather around (especially when she has new tricks and we’re watching at her). She has the positive vibe that facilitates conversation among co-workers too.

I also love how Nica is being so affectionate. That makes her a man’s bestfriend and a favored companion. Lately, I find myself getting a lot of comfort from her. I have been comforted by her presence, just looking at her helps me feel better. I love cuddling her. Cuddling is not something that you can teach, but it is instinctual. I like the feeling when she’s resting her jaw on my shoulder and receives all the “gigil” I have for her.

Study says dogs increases our “happy-hormone” (I couldn’t agree more). I have read one article in the internet which says, Oxytocin Increases When Your Dog Looks at You.  Oxytocin is the hormone that increases when we kiss or hug a loved one. It is also the same hormone that is present when you are “breast-feeding” that creates a mother-baby bonding. So, you aren’t really crazy when you’re thinking that your pet is your baby. 🙂 The bond is woven from the same stuff anyway.

I have my own “babies” / dogs at home. Tasha and Esau, and our guard dog, Dondy. I love all of them! It’s just that, I happened to spend most of my time at work – with Nica and she has that “extraordinary” sweetness. Disclaimer: I have no favoritism 😛

Both canines and humans can be trained to coexist in a workspace that nurtures productivity and creativity and at the same time – love. Agree?

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