Aubrey In Wanderland (My Wanderland Music and Arts Festival Experience)

Wanderland 2016

“Slow down so I can follow you…” – Panama

The whole event needs to slow down, literally, like everything went so fast and I missed most of the happenings up on stage. It’s a whole new experience to me.

Aside from concerts, I haven’t really gotten myself to a Music Festival, but not just because it’s expensive and it’s hard for me to spend thousands just for it.  (Haha! Miserly!) but because I’m also not familiar with the set of artists and their songs. So, nah!

But the stars unite and allows me to experience the galactic festival of this year’s Wanderland. I don’t know what to expect so I followed the Wanderland 2016 playlist on Spotify to prepare myself to sing-a-long and for a fan girling moment. Since then, I learned to love ’em and my most favorite is Bon Iver!!! O my gosh!!! The bearded hipster Justin Vernon. He has this inner emo that shows in his music. The lyrics embraces life lessons that have a lovely and melancholy vibe.

But to tell you honestly, I wasn’t able to  finish the whole set of Bon Iver and all the other artists. We were too busy manning the TOMS Outpost which is not bad at all.

It’s a great opportunity to meet TOMS Tribe

These are some of the things I get to work and play at the same time.

My most favorite is the ambush interview we had with random people and asked random questions. TOMS also offers its new coffee (for free!) that you can drink in a cool couche inside the TOMS tent.

Basically the goal is to build a community…naturally. Wherein it gives us an opportunity to meet people from different walks of life and talk about TOMS giving trip. Then they can also try it virtually using the Samsung VR gear.

TOMS Outpost at Wanderland

(Photo Credits to Ja and TOMS)



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Missed Chances And Unreciprocated Love (Sara Bareilles – Between the Lines)


between the lines
Communication plays a vital role in any relationship. It’s through our words and actions that we share ourselves with others. However, not all of us are good in expressing how we feel and what we really meant to say.

This is exactly why people would rather implicitly communicate what they think, what they feel, as if the subtle words that they are using are enough to convey the depth of their emotion. Worse, they often say nothing at all. Ugh. But wouldn’t life be much simpler if people can just say what they mean without worrying about the repercussions?

The rainy season brought on a feeling that I haven’t explored much since listening to Regina Spektor’s Samson.  This time the song Between the Lines by Sara Bareilles accompanied me in one of my cold and melancholic nights, enveloping me with an emotion that disturbed. I don’t think I’m the only one who wants to feel sad every now and then, but that creeping feeling still seems foreign to me. Research says that mild, temporary states of sadness may actually be beneficial in handling various aspects of our lives. Many of the greatest achievements of art, music, and literature explore the landscape of sadness. In fact, the movie Inside Out explored this through a character appropriately named Sadness and her role in Riley’s life. And I thought, apart from the weather, wanting to feel sad will help me reflect about my life, think about the things I’ve done or things I’m about to do. One of those realisations came to me when I listened to Between the Lines: the complexity of relationships.

(listen to it with Spotify lyrics and feel it, please)

I know each one of us has a different opinion and interpretation about the song, but for me,  it’s about two people who are “friends” (probably more than friends but less than lovers) and the girl had feelings for her friend, never said anything,  and now he has found someone else. They will always be “between the lines”

“I thought I was ready to bleed
That we’d move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late, two choices, to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He’d already left with the other”

I was reminded of a friend’s story, who opened up a similar situation. (I asked permission if I can blog about their story, she said yes but doesn’t want to named her, so let’s just hide her by the pronoun “she”)

They built a strong friendship. They told secrets to each other, life plans, and goals. The two of them can just hang out, maybe watch a film, without any kind of malice.

Or so they thought.

You see, those feelings grew.

They placed themselves in a vulnerable situation in which you and I can be.

Let’s not talk about their story anymore, because I think opening up your heart to another person and hoping for him or her to love you in return IS SO COMMON.


“loving someone who didn’t love you back” The saddest, most painful part of it all. But you love anyway.  I think that’s the essence of loving. You’re giving away part of you without asking anything in return.

Sara seems to embody a feeling that probably most everyone has experienced in life.

“Too late, two choices, to stay or to leave”

Often the most REGRETTED words are those left UNSAID.

You either free your soul and spill, or die in torment to salvage.

This is the part where you will have to decide to keep it because you’re afraid of rejection or probably scared of losing the friendship.  If you know for sure that the feelings are mutual, then there is no risk involved.

I tell myself all the words he surely meant to say
I’ll talk until the conversation doesn’t stay on
Wait for me, I’m almost ready when he meant let go

She was ready to come out and tell him how she feels and then they would be together. but she was too late.

Let go.

the two of you would have been an unstoppable force and an amazing love story – or NOT.

I understand why there are things that should not be said. Or if we will, it should be done with WISDOM. How we say it and the right timing when we say it.

Okay, that’s the end of my blog post. I don’t know how to end this. Haha! BUT I DEFINITELY add this song as one of my fave unrequited love songs.

I just want to say few more things.

Woman, I still believed that we deserved to be pursued but if the guy’s actions made you feel confused, I believed you can ask “WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVATION?” (PewDiePie accent) but please, be patient and love your guy friends with brotherly love. If God intended you to be partners, He will surely nourish that love in His time.

and GUYS, please, man-up. Lay down your intentions, be ready for a NO and don’t play with our fragile heart and emotions. huhu.

Alright, what is my point now?

Sometimes, it will not work the way we want it. (That’s reality) but even if it doesn’t, be assured that we can trust God. Later on, you will be thankful about why things happened that way. (I’m not trying to be religious or anything.) But this is FAITH.

Understand that life isn’t just about you and your love story but HIS LOVE STORY.

Romans 5:8

but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

This is TRUE LOVE.

God’s love is unconditional, and it’s not based on feelings or emotions. He doesn’t love us because we’re lovable or because we make Him feel good; He loves us because He is love. He created us to have a loving relationship with Him, and He sacrificed His own Son (who also willingly died for us) to restore that relationship.

Agree? 🙂

Thank you. I love you for taking time reading this.

What’s your thought about the song? about the love story of my friend? about unrequited love? and other random stuff. Tell me. 🙂

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Fasting Playlist

Headphone Music

Worship isn’t about music. But it’s hard to imagine worship without music.  I’m afraid that most people view worship and music as synonymous.

However, music can help to move people’s feelings and emotions to the direction of worship. But let us be reminded that it is the Lord who  initiates worship. We may have extravagant music, with super awesome songs but if our hearts is not in line with Him – it’s nothing. Worship is an overflowing of our relationship with Him. When we know How great and marvelous He is, we are moved to worship. We will then understand why we feel like dancing, why do we need to raise our hands, why we can sing, why we can shout, why we can play music.

Music or no music, beautiful songs or not beautiful songs, TRUE WORSHIP begins in the heart. When we worship Him in Spirit and in truth.  It reminds me of Day 2 of Prayer and Fasting: Honor God with our Worship. It is the recognition and response to the worth of God. Only when we know Him, we can worship Him in truth.

I personally love music. I always have my earphones with me, ipad, iphone and itouch (all have offline playlists on spotify)

The songs that I’m listening greatly affect my feelings. I was once fell in love on the lyrics and idea of it. (It has a good and bad effects though)

Music has a profound effect on your mind, spirit and behavior. Choose carefully the music you listen to. Pay attention on how you feel when you are listening. Be mindful of the lyrics, words you utter, beat, hymns. Avoid music that can dull your spiritual sensitivity. I don’t know, I can’t explain it further (maybe on the next blog posts), but I know you get it.

Check out my Fasting Playlist on Spotify.

  • Hungry -MercyMe
  • The more I seek You – Kari Jobe
  • Give me Faith – Elevation Worship
  • The Heart of Worship – Matt Redman
  • Draw Me Close – The Katinas
  • You’ll Come – Hillsong
  • None but Jesus – Hillsong
  • From the Inside Out – Hillsong
  • Came to my Rescue – Hillsong
  • You alone can Rescue – Matt Redman
  • Revelation Song – Kari Jobe
  • Chasing After You – Jonathan Stockstill
  • Deeper – Planetshakers
  • Higher, Wider, Deeper – Citipointe
  • Forever Reign – Hillsong
  • It is You – Hillsong
  • Desert Song – Hillsong
  • I can Only Imagine – MercyMe
  • Psalm 139 – MercyMe
  • I Surrender All – Klaus
  • Dominion
  • Like A Fire
  • Encounter Me
  • Forever
  • How He Loves
  • Where The Love Lasts Forever
  • Unending Love
  • God Is Able
  • With Everything
  • His Glory Apprears
  • Amazed
  • Open the Eyes of my Heart
  • Solution

Most of em are my favorites. But all of em speaks to me during this fasting week. The lyrics became my prayer and I own it.

How abou you? What d’you love to listen? Does the music you listen to invite the Holy Spirit?

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Sunrise: A Year After Haiyan

It’s been a year after Haiyan/Yolanda – the deadliest typhoon on record to have hit the Philippines. I’ve been seeing a lot of commemorative events in the news today, all the pictures and videos brings back the memories to me.

Last year, November 22, 2013. Our team – Victory Caravan, together with Operation Blessing, and CBN Asia went to Volunteer in giving relief goods and to render Medical Missions and Trauma Counseling for the survivors of the typhoon.

It was an extraordinary experience.

I cannot explain the scenery when we got there. Catastrophic and devastated aren’t enough words to describe them. Bent coconut trees, debris, cadaver on the streets, and homeless people. All we can do is pray and render the services that we can.

While hearing different stories earlier, I was reminded of Janina’s song dedicated to the typhoon victims, entitled “Sunrise”  (see lyrics below)

I love the part which says

Take a chance and see your battle’s won
Keep moving on, keep moving on, keep moving on


It may be difficult but be assured of this: we are victorious in Jesus Christ! The battle is already won.

The clouds may be blocking out the sun
Hold on tight, the good days will come

Today, the neighbourhood is little more than a chaotic shantytown. Nearly 90% of the 7,000-odd residents have come back, according to local barangay councillors, and nearly all of them have rebuilt their homes in the same location as their former dwellings – Praise God!

See the Incredible photos show a changed Philippines one year after Super Typhoon Haiyan – by Mashable

Remembrance of Victim

It doesn’t matter who is buried where, as long they are remembered.

A Year After We Volunteer

What progress has been made a year after Super Typhoon Yolanda? By God’s grace, a lot of help coming in. Few weeks ago, President Aquino approved a $3.74-bn six-year master plan to rebuild housing, social services and public infrastructure.

Yolanda Operation Blessing

I wish I can go back there and visit these kiddos 


Anyway, sharing you the lyrics of the song and hope you’ll find light in whatever situation you’re into right now. 🙂

Sunrise by Janina Vela Punzalan

 COMPOSED BY: Janina Vela and Sofia Paderes

VIDEO BY: Parkway Productions
Special thanks to Archie Castillo

I know you feel like there’s no hope in sight
Don’t worry now
Everything’s gonna be alright

Don’t give up and soon your fears are gone
Keep moving on, keep moving on

Sometimes when you feel
Like nothing is real
Just remember to look to the Light

Darkness may be consuming your night
But soon will come your sunrise

The clouds may be blocking out the sun
Hold on tight, the good days will come

Take a chance and see your battle’s won
Keep moving on, keep moving on, keep moving on

Sometimes when you feel
Like nothing is real
Just remember to look to the Light

Darkness may be consuming your night
But soon will come your sunrise
Soon will come your sunrise

I know that the road’s rough right now
And it’s tough right now
And I know you can’t stand up anymore

You can feel it inside
That spark, that light
It keeps you holding on

Sometimes when you feel
Like nothing is real
Just remember to look to the Light

Darkness may be consuming your night
But soon will come your sunrise

Sometimes when you feel
Like nothing is real
Just remember to look to the Light

Darkness may be consuming your night
But soon will come your sunrise
Soon will come your sunrise
Soon will come your sunrise
Soon will come your sunrise

Photo creds: Mr. Chito Vecina

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Thinking Out Loud

Thinking Out Loud


There’s a new song from Ed Sheeran’s X (Deluxe Edition) album that makes me “Kilig” (delightfully, giggly, giddy feeling) everytime I listen to it. I stumbled upon this song on Spotify and started to play it every so often. Like most of his other songs, it talks about his “love” for someone. He wants to grow old with this woman and he uses such romantic phrases to emphasize it.

As I ruminate the lyrics of the song, I want to own it, dedicate it to someone or, feel like it was dedicated to me. haha! Kidding!

The verses of the song describe how things will change throughout life. They will grow old. legs don’t work like they used to before… hair’s all but gone and my memory fades

They will become weak physically and their memories will eventually fade. But one thing is for sure, he is confident that she will still love him just the same.
When my hands don’t play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same

“Aging can be scary but growing old with your loved one is a blessing. “

Blessing – a wonderful gift from God. And Sharing your life with someone you love is indeed a blessing especially when God is involved in your relationship. As C.S. Lewis said, “Love that becomes a god, becomes a demon. Submit all your love, therefore, to the one that is Love.

And I’m thinking ’bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand

And maybe it’s all part of a plan

They say falling in love is a magical experience. The circumstances under which people fall in love are so random and odd that sometimes you wonder if it is all planned. A simple change in someone’s day, like randomly deciding to take a walk, could mean that they meet the love of their life and change their world forever.

Yes, people fall in and out of love all the time, but that’s only because people believe that love is something to be found – a tangible thing that exists as an entity of its own. That it’s something that can be lost. This is such a sad definition of love.

“Falling in love maybe an accident, but staying in love is a decision”

Love is a decision. Choose to love and then refuse to let it slip away.

Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am.

This is just tooooooo sweeeeeeet. Please.

When he’s with this girl, he falls in love with her in all possible ways, not once in his life, but everyday he sees her.

“Love is not about how many days, months or years you’ve been together. Love is about how much you love each other EVERYDAY. -unknown”

One of my favorite lines is ‘Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it’s evergreen

Comparing her soul to “evergreen” was really touching. It’s like saying her soul is always going to be beautiful in his eyes… always. *blush*

And baby, your smile’s forever in my mind and memory
And I’m thinking about how

Referring back to the first line of the verse, even when Ed is losing his memory, he won’t forget even the smallest details about his girl.

And maybe we found love right where we are

Ed has found love in his imagination as he is hoping to have a relationship with a girl.

What are your thoughts about the song?

Anyway, here’s the full lyrics of the song. Enjoy 😉

“Thinking Out Loud”

When your legs don’t work like they used to before
And I can’t sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?And, darling, I will be loving you ’til we’re 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I’m thinking ’bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I’m thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

When my hair’s all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don’t remember my name
When my hands don’t play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same
‘Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it’s evergreen
And, baby, your smile’s forever in my mind and memory
I’m thinking ’bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it’s all part of a plan
Well, I’ll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you’ll understand

But, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

So, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Oh, darling, place your head on my beating heart
I’m thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are
Oh, baby, we found love right where we are
And we found love right where we are

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Piano Teacher

Piano piece

A couple of years ago, I started teaching piano to the two girls I have met in our local church (ages 12 and 14). I don’t have any syllabus or fixed curriculum that time and completely relying on the lessons from Youtube and the book I’m using (obviously, it wasn’t formal).

Let’s say I’m just encouraged by their enthusiasm and interest on how to play piano. And on the other hand, I really enjoyed teaching. I feel accomplished whenever there’s an opportunity to share something to someone (especially on the younger generation). I believe that teaching is one way to pass on the baton. It is so fulfilling when you see your students growing in their craft, growing in the things you have taught them.

Teaching piano is not that easy, nor too complicated. It begins with learning, playing, and knowing.

As they say “You cannot give what you do not have,” same thing, you cannot teach what you do not know.

Next is loving the piano and the music it can produce.

Love it. What makes it more enjoyable is that you love what you’re doing. Put your heart into it, and for sure you will excel on it.

No, I’m not going to enumerate the things you need to know to become a good piano teacher. I just wanted to share on this blog post how the door opened once again for me to become a piano teacher, and what it taught me.

I got a text message from one of our worship leaders if I wanted to teach piano/ keyboard, I said yes! It surprisingly became my part-time job (which I never planned nor expected to earn from it). My student’s mom insisted that I should be paid for it, because I am investing my time to teach her daughter (I am deeply touched) and who doesn’t want to earn anyway? :p

It’s also another avenue for me to reach out to my student. I am extending another hour to introduce Jesus in our One2One session (she’ll join the next Victory Weekend!! Praise God!).

My career as a piano teacher doesn’t end there. I brought my keyboard at the office to do some song covers with my friends and also to teach them how to play it.

I am so happy to see them playing. Most of them really learned so fast.

What I learned.

1. Every student is serious enough about learning the piano. The moment a person takes action towards learning, he is being exectant, he’s looking forward what he’ll learn at the end of the day. That’s why I prepare my lesson in a syllabus that has a goal every meeting.

2. Every student needs the same basic knowledge about the piano but not every students will respond the same and, even more, every student needs to follow their own musical desires and learn at their own pace. Indeed, the pace of learning varies from every single person.

3. Teaching forces you to communicate your thoughts. Teaching piano will never be more effective than your ability to make others comprehend them.

Teach. It’s not just good for those you help; it’s good for you, too.

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Fall Facedown

“When we face up to the Glory of God, we find ourselves facedown in worship.” – Matt Redman.

Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him. This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. When I saw it, I fell facedown, and I heard the voice of one speaking. (Ezekiel 1:28) As we see God in His majesty, awesomeness, and holiness, we are humbled before Him. In the Scriptures in which man was privileged to view God in His glory, man was brought low or humbled in His presence. Ezekiel fell face down; Moses bowed to the ground and worshipped; Isaiah cried, “Woe is me!”;  John fell at His feet. Even the four living creatures and the twenty-four elders in heaven of Revelation fell down before the throne of the glorified Lamb. Falling facedown in worship is a real genuine reflection of an overwhelmed heart. Throughout the Scriptures, the Glory of God plays an important role upon making ordinary man be broken in spirit.   Matt Redman’s FACEDOWN Lyrics Welcomed in to the courts of the King I’ve been ushered in to Your presence Lord, I stand on Your merciful ground Yet with every step tread with reverence And I’ll fall facedown As Your glory shines around Yes, I’ll fall facedown As Your glory shines around Who is there in the heavens like You? And upon the earth, who’s Your equal? You are far above, You’re the highest of heights We are bowing down to exalt You So let Your glory shine around Let Your glory shine around King of glory, here be found King of glory

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